Monday, December 29, 2008
Now that dinners out of the way...I was thinking that you guys that read this are going to get tired of my melancholy mood right now and bail on me. Listen don't do that. I'm very resourceful and will hunt you down. Just hang on with me as I go through this learning experience (shitty time) and try to hang on for dear life and not slip into a permanent funk and allow my kids to subside on goldfish crackers and eggnog for breakfast (Aye I know there are some vitamins in there somewhere!)
We're still hoping the potential buyer comes through and allows us to move on, although I tired of waiting for someone who doesn't appreciate my abode. Did I mention I hate this whole stupid process?
What's going on this week? Well it's almost New Year's..yay! Time to pull out the new budget software...boo...i mean yay! And the huz is gonna make some fancy alcoholic beverages this week for our celebration on the 31st. We're having a party and it's gonna be in front of the xbox 360-me and the huz drinking alcoholic beverages...that's how we roll. We're such an exciting couple!
Happy New Year!
Oh yeah the huz is turning old on saturday, it's his birthday! We're gonna go fancy and eat at a fine dining establishment. Hopefully the folks will watch the babes and it'll be an enjoyable birthday for him. I'm trying to think of something else fun for us to do that he would feel loved by. It occurred to me to take him to play Laser Tag but I'm kind of scared. I'm thinking we'll injure ourselves and how much does something like that cost anyways? I'm such a wet blanket sometimes. I should just schedule it and we should just go...I'm still kind of scared. I'll let you know if we (I) chicken out and take him to the movies instead.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
The reason the buyer pulled out of her contract, well what was communicated to us, is b/c she was overwhelmed by the amount of repairs that had to be done according to the inspector (who is often viewed as God in these situations). We're frustrated though because in the Request To Remedy paperwork she submitted to us she only listed three things she wanted us to perfom-and I got those done the very next day. But she pulled out anyway. It seems she was just really overwhelmed or something I'm not really sure, but nonetheless she committed and refused to be honest (from our perspective) and then didn't follow through with her committment to us. Her pulling out of the contract was legal because she had until the 25th to respond. It really sucks! We just feel like she led us on and it was so rude! What a frickin waste of time! And we were ready to close next week!
What do we do now? Well the contract on the new house is now void b/c we won't be closing on our house (someone pinch me this is not happening.) So at this point we lost our other house...the house. I don't think I can communicate how sad and angry we feel (I'm about to cut a bitch!) We're trying desperately to get perspective though b/c we know there are worse things in this world happening to people. And we are grateful for so much (but this bites the big one!) And whose to say the house we want won't be on the market for a while longer. And maybe someone else will actually like our house and we can still sell and move into the house. At any rate, we're gonna keep on keepin on and relist our house and have showings (ugg truly the worst part with 3 little babes!)
My mom and dad have been so encouraging through this process. I've gotten phone calls and emails over the last few days from the both of them. They keep telling me to keep going or actually mom says, "pull your big girl panties up and keep fightin, your a fighter girl!" She cracks me up more these days as we're learning to understand oneanother better.
So I guess saying this is a waste of time is not actually true. Since I wrote that up there in the second paragraph it's not sitting well with me. We have learned some things about what we will and won't do if we get a second offer. We've also learned how many people care! Our friends and family have been so thoughtful over the last day as we got the news yesterday morning. We really appreciate it! We've also been pretty sick these last few day, my eardrum almost ruptured on monday so I was in a lot of pain with a "raging ear infection" that's what the nurse practitioner called it. The Huz and I both are pretty sure we have sinus infections too. And Super N has pink eye in both eyes and Baby Jin one eye. I thought W had pink eye too but he has managed to escape all of our sicknesses and got to enjoy a day with extended family while we tried to rest at home in our sickness with two sick babes.
Today we're going to go to our Great Grandparents home and celebrate with family (uh more like try to breathe since there will likely be 35 people crammed into a not so large space...ugg.) It should be fun (perhaps I should bring my inhaler?) Or hopefully it will be somewhat relaxing (Oh how I hope it will.) At about 5ish we'll leave the G Rents and go to my parents home and open gifts with them and my sister's family-should be a Merry Ho Time...or something like that.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
What's up with the house?!
Well let's see. Both houses had inspections last week. We received a request to repair report on ours Thursday evening. Apparently some of the roofing tiles were damaged and some of the seals were broken (ice storm of 05' or hail storm of 06' or wind storm of 08'???) Some of the flashing was not where it should be as well. We also had a piece of soffit that was rotted. Apparently the painters we hired to paint our house for 4k 2 months ago neglected to tell us that we had some rotted woodness going on up there. However they had no problem painting right on over it...MOFOS! At any rate, we also had a small hole in a front gable and some minor electrical issues that will be solved tomorrow by our trusty electrician. All in all pretty easy and now we can breathe a bit. The report on the house that we are in contract with came back pretty clean. It did have 3 small gas leaks (eek!) and a cracked joist in the basement that we asked the owner to support with a piece of wood, we were informed this morning that she has obliged.
In regards to the inspection on the house, we shadowed the inspector and got to hang out in the house for 3 hours. It was really reassuring to walk through and find out that the house was in pretty good shape for being built around 1920. The house also has had some renovations done in the last 10 years that the inspector said were done well. (I actually have a cool story about the guy who actually did those renovations.)
There is a small room with a french door off of the family room (the pic above). It currently doesn't have a heat duct running to it. When I first walked through the home at the end of August I envisioned that room being a bathroom. The Huz agreed over time that this was a good idea. I inquired on whether or not that was a possibility and the inspector thought it was totally doable and would be rather easy since the plumbing for the toilet was directly below the room and the plumbuing was about 3 feet away! How exciting a downstairs pot woohoo! We plan to jump on that right after we move into the house. My dad is disabled and can't do stairs very well at all so having a bathroom on the bottom level will be awesome in many ways for everyone (including Mommabear who doesn't have to run two small butts up the stairs all the time when potty training happens or when she has to go to the pot.)
This last week has been retardedly ridiculous. Momma almost cut a bitch! Naw I'm just kiddin. But I did feel like that cause this mortgage industry is a crock of sh$*t. Let's just say I'm not surprised that so many mortgage companies and banks have went bankrupt...mofos. At any rate, we pushed our closing back to January 13th. Now we can enjoy Christmas a bit and pack in a slower fashion and breathe a little bit. Crazy fool what was I thinking to try to close on Dec 30th...sheesh!
MERRY CHRISTMAS lovely Monkeys!
Monday: Black Bean Soup w/ Turkey and corn thrown in
Wednesday: Breakfast: Pancakes w/ syrup & Turkey bacon, Late lunch/Dinner: Christmas Eve at G & G's & my mom and dad's
Thursday: Christmas celebration food included (bkfst, lunch & dinner) at Mom & Dad's.
Friday: Bkfst: Oatmeal, Lunch: PB&J, Dinner: Marinated Chix Breasts, oven roasted pot's w/ evoo & garlic, & spinach
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
I run downstairs to grab a diaper, the baby sees me fly past him and his screams quiet and then increase in sound as he realizes I'm not there to pick him up. I grab the diaper from the laundry room and run back through the house and back up the stairs to the bathroom. I silently commend myself for not tripping over the large blue rocking dog parked smack dab in the middle of the living room. Grabbing my 2 year old I throw a diaper on her, ninja style, and then take a moment to just collect myself as I fill my heart pounding. Heading around the corner I find the 3 year old, grab his hand then lead them both down the stairs. We head to the kitchen and I turn the under-the-cabinet tv on and plop them on the floor to watch Curious George.
At this point the baby has seen us and has quieted his screams into whimpers. I walk across the dining room, reach down into the pack and play and grab him his whimpers turning into coos. I clutch him to me taking in his warmth at the same time realizing his sleeper has been soaked completely through and up to his neck in urine. I quickly draw him back from me and carry him to the rug in the living room, lay him down and run to get another diaper from the laundry room. The baby starts screaming when he realizes I've left him there alone. I return and try to manuever the urine soaked, cold, sleeper off of my crying baby. I then change his diaper, pick him up and take him to the laundry room to search for dry clothes. While there I grab some tights and a dress for my 2 year old and some underwear, pants, and a shirt for my 3 year old. I trip over the dirty laundry pile on my way out and note in my head that I need to wash clothes. While sitting in the living room changing the baby I take in the mess that has accumulated in the room over the last few days. I immediately feel overwhelmed by it. It's been 15 minutes since I woke up.
Monday, December 08, 2008
Tuesday: Salmon Packets and Rice Noodle Pilaf (from last week; we were looking at houses and went to a pizzaria for dinner)
Wednesday: Roast Turkey Sandwiches w/ chips and apple slices (from last week; hub and i had a big lunch so we didn't eat dinner, the kids had pb&j for dinner)
Friday: Parmesan Crusted Pork Chops and Noodles Romanoff w/ a veggie
Saturday: B: pancakes, D: quiche
Sunday: B: french toast D:Scalloped Pot's w/ Ham and a veggie
Saturday, December 06, 2008
To be continued.
Thursday, December 04, 2008
What I've been daydreaming about as of late is being a professional B Boxer (beatboxer). In my head I fantasize about meeting a really good beatboxer who could take me under his wing and critique me and help me achieve my b boxing potential. I then picture joining up with a group of street b boxers and traveling with them and showcasing our talents at some large event (like we're the Cirque Du Soleil or something...which I did want to join at some point. I thought with the right diet and exercise routine, the Hub didn't think it was a good idea.)
The art of B Boxing has totally crowded my thoughts and so I've been practicing a lot. My kids really seem to dig it and it makes them crack up in laughter (of course they're probably laughing at me as my husband was internally but was doing a very nice job at containing it as I told him this secret desire last night before bed.)
Don't be surprised if you see my ass on a street sign or you actually see me with a group of people on a corner somewhere. Just say "hey" and feel free to stop and listen. Of course currently I'm too scared to actually do it in front of people except my kids so don't expect to see me or the signs soon of course. But keep your eyes open in the next 5 years or so.
If you are interested in trying your hand (mouth) at b boxing click Here.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Just kidding about the cd being Alvin and The Chipmunks...I'm much too sophisticated for that...HA!
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Take a minute and check out this awesome website dedicated to this significant event in history.
Monday, December 01, 2008
Currently I'm using The Aldi Queen's food plan so all my recipes can be found there.
Monday: Dinner with parents
Tuesday: Potato Soup w/ toppings: bacon & cheese
Wednesday: Chicken Delicious, salad & crescent rolls
Thursday: Salmon Packets w/ Rice and noodle pilaf
Friday: Leftover Salsa Chix (from the freezer)
Saturday: Bfst: Pumpkin Pancakes Dinner:Roasted Turkey Sandwiches w/ Blue Chips & apple slices
Sunday: Quiche , Turkey Bacon & fruit
Jealous Huh? Where did I get these little lovelies you're wondering?Etsy! You must head over there and check out all of the many handmade items they've got for sale over there. If you are truly looking for something unique to give this holiday season go there!
Friday, November 28, 2008
She says, "It’s easy at times to feel like we’re limited or lacking in our ability to “live” because we have less money, but I’ve observed over time, in my own life as well as in the lives of others, that often we are at our most creative when we are provided with limitations and boundaries. As T.S. Eliot once wrote:
“When forced to work within a strict framework the imagination is taxed to its utmost – and will produce its richest ideas. Given total freedom the work is likely to sprawl.”"
This resonates so much with me! I am at my most creative when I have limitations. And I feel like even though our country appears to be having a financial crisis, maybe it's a blessing. For those whose homes are in foreclosure or have lost their jobs, I feel great compassion and I'm saddened by their situations. But I do wonder if this time of "crisis" could lead us to a much needed perspective shift on money and on material items as a whole. I guess getting us to really evaluate our "needs" versus our "wants". And forcing us to be creative with our money, resources and our material items. I'm sure there are a lot of people out there that already do this, but I'm not one of them.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
I hope everyone's holiday is enjoyable. I thought I'd go ahead and get my mind aligned around gratitude and thankfulness since afterall it is Thanksgiving. Now if I could learn to do this every other day of the year- with time.
A few things I'm grateful for:
My husband who although we butt heads a lot- I love you so much and couldn't bear to think how sad and lonely I'd be if you weren't in my life. I look forward to these next years of raising our kids together. Also learning how to grow closer by spending time together (albeit we don't have a lot right now) by playing games together, talking, watching movies, going to concerts and our favorite way to spend time together, eating at fun restaurants and enjoying creative cuisines. I love you man!
W- My first born. You're turning into an empathetic and intelligent little guy who can hold his own in conversation. I hope this coming year we can start to have little mom and son dates. I'm grateful you're in my life.
Super N- Such a loving little girl. So tender yet very tough. You've been making me laugh since you arrived. I love you.
Baby J- You've learned to speak your mind already. I just love hearing you chatter in your bed in the mornings. I can't wait to get to know you better.
My family- I've really been blessed with my family. The Hub's parents are incredibly supportive and loving. And my parents care so much about their grand kids. As painful as the past has been I'm still grateful they're my parents. I hope I can continue to show them love.
Friends- Not sure what I'd do without my friends to make me laugh, bring me back to reality when I'm too emotional or angry or sad to get there on my own; or to just accept me and enjoy a cool conversation.
God- That He is good and loving and faithful, although I don't understand it all the time.
Again, have a GREAT Thanksgiving friends and slow down and take it all in.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Baby J is now almost 8 months old and has been sleeping through the night for a while, not crying all the time and just generally happier. I'm dealing with my PPD with meds and I'm taking meds for pain that I've been experiencing. I overall feel a lot better. Things still get stressful with having 3 babes but it's gotten a bit easier.
So now that days are a little better I decided to try to menu plan again and stay within a budget again. Our gastrointestinal systems are a bit out of whack and we've gained some weight b/c of eating out, mostly pizza carry out. I also really enjoy making dinner but often I'm so tired by 5 o'clock and that seems to be the witching hour for the kids as well so often a homemade dinner doesn't happen. Some things I've thought of to try to head off the typical 5 o'clock pattern is thinking ahead about dinner and prepping it either the night before or a little at a time throughout the day. Setting out all the ingredients for the meal I plan to prepare the day of the planned meal, the unrefrigerated ones. And last but definitely my favorite, throw a bunch of crap into the crockpot in the morning and let it go all day until dinner time.
Upon realizing the blessing of a crockpot I searched online for crockpot recipes and found a really helpful site A Year of Crockpotting. The blogger's intent was to use their crockpot everyday for a year- I urge you to check it out and take advantage of some of the recipes to make dinner time a little less hectic. Another website that has been helpful too when it comes to making economical dinners that are easy, $5 Dinners. This blogger has made it a goal to make frugal meals, $5 for her particular family, and urges others to pick a dollar amount that allows you to make frugal and healthy meals for your own families. And one more website that I find helpful is The Aldi Queen. Amy Clark provides a few different menus using items exclusively from Aldi's. Recently I've made a decision to shop at Aldi's more so her menu plan and shopping list is very helpful and is just what I needed. I'm so grateful for all the mom bloggers out there who use their powers for good-to help other moms.
I went shopping today for two weeks worth of meals, diapers and wipes. I won't be doing that again with the kids in tow, it was like Bebe's Kids running around the store, momma yelling, etc. etc. But even though it was stressful I'm excited to have a menu plan and all the fixins needed to make some yummy dinners. I'm starting to feel like I can breathe again.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
Monday: Curry Chicken with Coconut and Peanuts over Quinoa
Tuesday: Pasta w/ Sauce and Broccoli
Wednesday: Asian Stirfry w/ Rice and Tofu
Thursday: Happy Thanksgiving (eating with family)
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Just kidding! I love my kiddos and couldn't give them away!
Friday, November 21, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
I awoke this morning to find (yet again) a naked 2 & 3 year old running amuck in poop! They pulled off a doorknob, that wasn't fully attached, and stuck it in poop and then used it as a stamp to make circular stamp patterns all over the carpet. Yeah okay so they're creative and perhaps we have the making of a couple of future scrapbookers with their stamping talents but I wasn't too thrilled. Off to clean up poop and more poop.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
But anyhoo...something really cool that's happening is that after the perspective buyer saw our house last week we received a report indicating that she's interested in our house. The report also stated she wanted to take a few days to consider it. Tonight we received word from our realtor that she is coming to see our house for the second time this Tuesday. She also requested the dimensions of our living and dining room spaces. To say we are a bit excited would be an understatement. I guess our house could really sell this week! Of course if not we'll deal with that but it could...wow!
Thought I'd share where things are at at this point in time.
Thursday, November 06, 2008
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
Monday, November 03, 2008
Friday, October 31, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
In regards to the house we want, once our house is on the market we can make a contingent offer on the house we really want. Who knows if we'll get it but we'll see.
Here's what the outside looks like of the house we'd like.
Friday, October 24, 2008
I realized this week that I have Postpartum Depression. Some of the things I've been experiencing are
- Intense anxiety- This seems to come in the form of nightmares and panic attacks. I get so overwhelmed and anxious b/c of the constant screaming and demands on me day to day that I feel like my heart is going to burst b/c it's beating so fast. What accompanies this reaction is an immediate and intense sense of dread or hopelessness.
- Insomnia- Being alert from 9pm until midnight and then waking back up again at/around 4am. This of course leaves me exhausted in the mornings and afternoons.
- Weight gain- I feel so overwhelmed by my emotions and/or circumstances that I'm eating a lot of junky food. It seems at times that tasting the food is the only thing that is enjoyable in life.
- Inability to function- I can function where absolutely necessary- my kids, bills, shopping...but clothes washing, dinner, cleaning house are all done if there is no clean underwear or things are starting to smell (and then sometimes I don't really care-the Hub takes care of it).
- Not enjoying my kids and loving them through play- This is the most painful to admit but it's as if I've had a wall that is preventing me from giving to them in this way.
- Intense anger and sadness
- Morbid thoughts- like giving Baby J up for adoption as one example.
- Withdrawal from relationships
Also, weds night a friend initiated a chat over tea and she just totally enveloped me with support and love. She asked me questions to try to figure out where I was at and how she could support me. She then came over again last night and we talked some more. I noticed yesterday and even now my interactions with my babes have changed. I'm more relaxed and loving and my anger has dissipated tremendously. Friendship, a supporting heart and ear are a tremendous resource to the depressed person, I see now. I'm grateful.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Don't judge him to harshly but the Hub just informed me recently that he was smitten with Baby J-he wasn't very fond of him before. They had somewhat of a tumultuous relationship until recently, this past weekend, so I'm happy about the new change. I think me nursing Baby J didn't allow the Hub much opportunity to hold Baby J. And when I wasn't nursing Baby J didn't really seem interested in others holding him. But now things are different! Baby J has turned into a more content baby who smiles, chews on his feet and giggles a lot! He loves being held and snuggled by daddy and overall more pleasant babe.
On Sunday we had him on all fours and he moved his back legs forward. We were really surprised! We're assuming he's going to crawl pretty soon...kind of crazy if it comes to fruition. W started crawling a week before he turned 1 and Super N started crawling at 1o or 11 months, I need to look it up.
Life in regards to Baby J is a bit easier and I'm very grateful!
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Speaking of Halloween, I bought W and Super N their costumes last night while at Once Upon a Child. I was going to buy Baby J a cute little cow number but I needed to save a little money I'll just wait until next year. I'll have plenty of time to decorate him! I'll leave you wondering what I picked up for them. I'll post pics later!
The playgroup I'm apart of is going to a Farm tomorrow to celebrate the Fall Harvest. We did this last year and it was so enjoyable for all of us moms and our kids. One downer I do recall is that with the admission price you were to receive a donut and a hot cup of apple cider. I remember we were all looking forward to the cider b/c nothing says fall like apple cider. Well apparently they ran out and substituted in it's place a little cup of apple juice. You know the kind you used to get in school with the foil lid that you peel back! Needless to say we were all disappointed by that one! It's kind of funny thinking about it in retrospect though!
I'm so excited and I hope that it's cool outside so we can wear sweaters and that there is apple cider there! I also hope the kids love it like they did last year. One drawback is that Amanda and V won't be there this year since they moved to another state. I miss them but I know they are enjoying their new home in Indy.
Friday, September 26, 2008
I am not void from this I do it too! Is it because we feel responsible? Why?? Should we be able to control every little thing they do? Doesn't that sound ludicrous?! Like we can control a two year old! Do we think that if we apologize for our kids behavior it will make the other person think we aren't a bad parent? I'm very curious about this whole thing. I just find it fascinating b/c honestly I don't know a mommy in my realm of moms who doesn't apologize for their childs unwise (unwise= subjective; it's dependent on the context) choices.
Is it ever necessary to apologize for our kids choices though? I know I have been in situations where my kid has spilled a drink on someone else's couch or floor and I felt the need to apologize because I should've suggested they move into a more drink friendly environment or assisted them or something. But other then when others property is dirtied or damaged, is it necessary to apologize for our kids choices?
What if we don't apologize for their behavior? Do we risk the possibility of others thinking we are a bad parent? Does it matter if others think we are a bad parent?
What are we teaching our kid(s) if we apologize for all their "unwise" choices? What would we teach our kid(s) if we don't apologize for their "unwise" choices?
I'm really interested in what others think on this topic.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Baby J escaped out of his Boppy yesterday while playing. I ran into the kitchen to do something and when I came back I discovered him army crawling backwards on the rug. Apparently he wants to move! The other kids were not like this. Super N was pretty much a lump for 11 months and W just didn't seem interested until around 9 months or so. If I were to guess I think he probably is itching to play with his siblings.
Also, Baby J has decided to finally like his daddy again. He now smiles at daddy and he also will cuddle with daddy and allow him to hold him for an extended period of time. Mommy is thrilled about this turn of events! Oh yes the colic is all gone! And the last few days Baby J has barely spit up-which is wonderful! He's also still nursing and has started eating bananas within the last 3 days, he really loves them.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
I yell at my kids-loudly and obnoxiously sometimes (I like to call her Ghetto momma). The yelling seems to come when stress increases. I discipline my kids as well and sadly I've disciplined them in anger a lot more as of late. I've become the momma I didn't want to be.
I sing to and with my kids most days. I smile at them often and laugh with them. I enjoy hugging them and holding them daily. I pray for their character and their future a couple times a week. I also pray for the ability to love them unselfishly. I've become the momma I did want to be.
I just read something online that struck me. Mom-101 says, "The best advice I ever got about parenting was from my own mother. She told me that every decision you will make as a parent is right, and every decision you will make as a parent is wrong. Once you learn that, you're golden.And boy, she nailed it.There is no one right way to do anything. Hell, we could find out in fifty years that the levels of mercury and lead in our own bodies is so high that breastfeeding is actually far worse than formula. Science changes, parenting theories evolve, new experts spring up with ideas that we never considered before.
I realize that in general I'm very judgemental, I don't like this about myself. I realize too that the person I'm most judgemental about is myself. I have a feeling I'm not the only one that feels this way about themself. With all the parenting theories/suggestions/commands out there I'm often left feeling exhausted, anxious and overwhelmed about the "right way" to raise my babes. I read something or hear something and immediately evaluate my ability to mother well. I'm so done with feeling this way. Something I've realized in my journey as a mom with 3 babes 3 and under is that some things are really not that big of a deal in the grand scheme of things. Dirty faces, clothes,house, losing your shit sometimes in anger, yelling, tv watching, unhealthy food at times, mommas at home, mommas at work, etc, etc.
What I've also learned is that communicating love to my babes through hugs, snuggling, smiles, kind and patient words, singing to and with them, praying with them and for them and providing them with food, clothes and shelter and having a humble heart towards my kids as well as continually working on my marriage to keep in healthy are all incredibly valuable.
I've also taken a liking to the adage, "It takes a village to raise a child.". Love and correction from family & friends to our babes has been such a blessing for the Hub and I. During times of intense stress and difficulty over the last 3.5 years others loving our babes has been such a blessing. This is true as well when things are "normal" and others just spend time with the babes and engage them in play, conversation, singing, etc. They learn so much from others and they also learn to be self reliant (versus having momma and daddy around all the time).
It is truly challenging being a parent. At times I'm so grateful to have the opportunity to have met these babes and to have learned so much from them and to have the privilege to raise them. But other times I'm overwhelmed by the task and question what I got myself into. I guess it's probably a mixed bag of these emotions from here on out. I'm just really happy I'm not the only one out there raising kids and that there is a whole lot of others that are in the same spot as I.
I love my oldest dearly. I can recall everything about his birth even though I've birthed 3 babes in about 3 years. I remember when I was in labor his heart rate kept dropping so they broke my water to put a monitor on his head. Upon breaking my water they discovered there wasn't much and the little bit that was there had meconium in it. There seemed to be a bit of worry and panic in the room at that point. The nurses called NICU and decided to fast forward my delivery to get him out. After he made his entrance, I wasn't able to hold him right away b/c the NICU nurses swooped him up and had to check him out thoroughly for fear that he had meconium in his lungs. This as you can imagine was all a bit frightening but he ended up being okay and I got to hold him about 2.5 hours later.
- Our 3 year old can talk in mostly complete sentences making it easier for him to communicate his needs and wants.
- He's more patient.
- His tantrums are less frequent and they're more controlled it seems.
- When he gets an ouchy he can tell us what exactly hurts.
- He seems more interested in others.
- He tells his 2 year old sister, "It's okay."
- He likes to have conversations.
- He asks "why" all the time!
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Let's get this house on the market and sold already. I'm so on edge and convinced it's going to take years for my house to sell and my kids will be going to college when it finally does sell and then it will be pointless!
Alright, alright call me a pessimist.
The house we want is having an open house today. I've thought about using the kids binoculars and scoping it out from across the street just to see how many people I must compete with. The Hub suggested I go in and point out all the flaws REAL loud and obnoxiously....I'm considering this option.
But a good friend said to me Wednesday that God will meet my needs and WILL give me this house if it's meant for us. I'm trying to buy that line. God is good. But I've been so burned as of late with relationships that it's so painful for me to not put up a wall between me and God. Why is that? Does that even make sense? How can I accept the good things from God but when I suffer I put up a wall? In general though I've been pretty cynical about all things spiritual. I don't think it's necessarily a bad thing b/c I need to figure out things for myself so I can live honestly but with having babes over the last 3 years and going through so many life, physical and emotional changes-let's just say I don't feel like myself anymore.
Wow I really digress. My post title, Spending Money to Make Money, is expressing currently what is happening in our "journey" to put our house on the market. We have spent roughly 10k getting this house up to par. It's very stressful. But I will tell you it's hard to believe our house won't sell, but I bet everyone in this position thinks this.
Wouldn't be cool if in a month from today I wrote a blog post expressing my excitement over selling my house?
The exterior painter comes Wednesday to power wash the house. He will then begin the process of scraping old paint, filling cracks and holes, replacing trim pieces and then painting our house. We will then place our house on the market. So as of today we have about 1o days to finish everything inside the house so we can put our house on the market.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
'Whatever you give a woman, she's going to multiply. If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.' So - if you give her crap, you will receive more shit than any one human being can handle Love and appreciate all the women in your life.
Thursday, September 04, 2008
So John Mccain picked a lady to run with him...pretty cool I think. I heard snippets of her speech last night and have heard people on the news refer to it as legendary, unforgettable, etc.
I think it's pretty cool that she was picked not b/c I'm a Republican and plan to vote for MCcain & Palin, which I'm not anymore and I won't be voting for him (oooh should I have shared that?!), but b/c she's the first woman picked to be in such a high position. How awesome is that?!
The whole reason I'm even writing this post is b/c on the way home from taking W to school this morning I heard on NPR that leading feminists are not supporting Palin (in any way, shape or form) b/c she's Pro Life and against Gay Rights. Now that just infuriates me! Honestly I don't care what she supports or doesn't support at this point in the race. I'm instead infuriated at the fact that they are not supporting the first woman to be picked to run as Vice President!!! Come On!!! This is so huge for women in general!
I thought Feminism was about women having freedom of choice and women having equality??
Now that's a damn shame! ...excuse my language...
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
W's first day of preschool was yesterday. He was so excited! When I took him to the classroom I stuck around for about a half an hour b/c he was very apprehensive and scared. But his teacher Mrs. F swooped in and let him sit with her, that was all it took and he was fine with out mom for a few hours.
When I picked W up he was so excited! He was quick to tell me that he went down the red slide and that he got a sticker and then showed me by shoving it under my nose. He was so cute!
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Yesterday for example we had to attend two different birthday celebrations which meant we were gone all day long. I stuffed our dipe bag full of cloth and as each child needed changed I just adjusted the already stuffed dipe and put it on Super N or Baby J. W eventually needed a dipe after he would get distracted while playing and peed through all the extra undies I had.
They are awesome, awesome dipes and knowing I don't have to leave my house to purchase dipes but instead just do a load of laundry is so huge in my chaotic life!
Thanks mommy Heather and Kristin for your recommendation!
Friday, August 29, 2008
These cupboards need feet still. We're planning on putting them on casters to make them moveable. This will allow larger items to be easily carried in and out of the basement for our move as well as for the new owners. All the cupboards still need hardware and baseboards. Some need their doors and the sink hole has yet to be cut allowing the sink to be installed. But it seems the kitchen is coming along rather nicely.
This might I add was only 15 minutes after "The Flour Incident".