Therapeutic Gardening

Gardening has been so good for me. I have found it to be such a relaxing hobby. I'm not sure if yardwork falls into the "gardening" category but I'm throwing it in there. I've been pulling weeds, moving dirt, planting flowers and mowing the lawn a lot in the last few months and I really enjoy it.

After I had Baby J life has taken a turn more towards the chaotic. I feel very stressed out most days and so when the hub comes home and after we eat dinner, he takes the kids and I go outside. It's not anything we've agreed upon but I feel like it's an automatic response for me right now~therapy.

I'm the kind of person who always sees things that need done or changed, I drive the hub and others crazy at times. This although is a good trait in some respects but I think it has tended to drive others away. In relationships this coupled with my inability to be honest, for fear of rejection, has really compromised many a friendship (truly a topic for another day!). Wow..tangent! Back to gardening, I have a lot of projects in my head that I'd like to research and see if I have the time, ability, money and stamina to complete this next year we'll see. One advantage though of being this way is that things are never boring...:)

So right now in my life I'm feeling quite lonely. It's pathetic...I know. I bet this is a common feeling of SAHM's of little kids. But gardening has been therapeutic. It's provided exercise, time to think and just a change. No I'm not talking to the birds, bugs and mice like Cinderella but there's still a few more months of summer!